February 2012
154 posts
elitepussy:
i really can’t picture anyone at all having a crush on me. i can’t picture anyone daydreaming about me. i can’t picture someone thinking about me when they’re lay in bed before they fall asleep. i can’t picture anyone telling their friends about me. i can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because i hugged them, or even just because i made eye contact with them. i can’t picture...
People: What's wrong?
My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.
My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.
Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.
My Mum keeps getting angry at me and telling me how selfish I am. I wonder if she knows how much it hurts to hear that from her. I wonder what she’d think if she knew that I don’t give a shit about myself and my pathetic life?
This one time one of my friends told me I was single because I’m so weird that I scare boys away…
Today my biology teacher asked me go up and talk to her. She asked me if I wanted to be here, I figured she meant in biology so I just said yes… She continued on to say that the look I have on my face makes it look as if this is the worst place in the world. I just told her I was tired. But yes Miss, school is the worst place in the world…
